Nicole, Nicole!

No perfect title

2010-02-27T10:40:00.000-08:00

NO perfect texts.

NO perfect introduction.

NO perfect ending.

Because there's NO perfect US to begin with.

Ohohohow.

2010-02-22T08:50:00.000-08:00

I missed this blog!!!!! It's been almost a year!!!!!

Waaaaaaaaah. can't believe Ive opened you again!

:D

...

2008-05-14T03:46:00.000-07:00

Some things on earth are just too hard to comprehend.

Come and Go.

From the teddy bear you once held when you were little down to the one, the only person who had brought meaning to your life.

Outburst of Happiness

2008-03-12T13:33:00.001-07:00

HAPPINESS HAPPINESS HAPPINESS HAPPINESS HAPPINESS HAPPINESS

That's the end goal of mankind.

What we aspire for.

What gives us strength.

What keeps us going amidst everything.

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What is the real meaning of the word?

Happy + ness.

State of ?

You may complete these sentences :

I AM HAPPY WHEN ____________________________.

HE/SHE MAKES ME HAPPY WHENEVER ___________________________.

WE ARE HAPPY BECAUSE _______________________________.

Maybe you already have answers on your head, but you may mistake a reason for another,

or think of a reason that is not qualified as a reason.

What can make us happy then? Do the reasons we have are enough to say that we are/can be happy?

What if I am not, what if you're not. But we think we are.

I cannot picture myself extremely happy. Because, the different meanings of happiness keep juggling inside my flat head.

What can be enough?

Enough to say I have someone?

Enough to say you have a family?

Enough to say I passed the board exam?

Enough to say I learned how to swim?

Enough to say I can drive?

Enough to say I got a new job?

Enough to say my bus is here at last?

Enough to say there's no school today?

Enough to say I have a vacation trip readied tom?

Enough to say we're complete at dinner?

Enough to say "HEY I'M IN LOVE."

Enough to say we share the same sentiments?

Answer: YES. these things are more than enough.

When all good memories are added up, they will be equal to a word.....

HAPPINESS.

simple joys.
simple things added together.
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Instant sarap noodles

2007-09-07T05:35:00.000-07:00

Nahihirapan ka ba pag nabitin ka ng amoy ng yakisobang nakababad sa mainit na tubig?

Sarap higupin sana habang mainit init pa.

Lalagyan mo lang ng hot water then solved ka na.

Konting ihip lang, nako ho. Swabeng dadaloy sa labing gutom na gutom.

Hmmmmm. Ang sarap ng noodles, instant man pero matagal ding inasam.

Gutooooooooooooooooom.

Half drowning already.

2007-08-04T04:49:00.000-07:00

No need for a backgorund or interpretation of this literary work. The poem speaks for itself.

I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness
and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under
I yell for help but no one is there to hear it
I begin to see the water at eye level
and I kick and flail
fighting to stay above the darkness
But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me
and I slowly begin to give in
to the feeling that lies below the water line
the waters starts to fill my lungs
the lungs that once held so much life
yet now they allow the murky water to replace that
I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness
But why doesn't someone grab my hand
pull me from darkness's grasp?
because no one knows I stand at the boundary
the boundary between light and dark
so I give in to the thing that holds me
All of the strength and all of the courage
that I once held in my heart
can't save me from the water
So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness
undetected by the occupants of that world
I don't want to fight anymore
I've given into darkness.....................

One day Late. Yesterday's entry.

2007-07-31T03:05:00.000-07:00

Don't hit the clingy road when you're half asleep.

Worse, don't DRIVE your dad's car if you can't rightfully handle the wheels.

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I woke up late, took a shower, wore my ironed clothes and put on my shabby shoes.

Dad was there greeting 'Goodmorning child' as I ran and got the keys on top of I-can't-remember where.

He just smiled, I did not. I was just again ranting because I did not wake up early.

Papers were killing me. Yes. YOU were torturing me that night.

And so I had to stay up late til my eyes weaken and start blurring out.

Hate hate hate it.

As expected, drivers perform the "too fast too furious style," not minding any pedestrian and PUJS if they need to reach a targetplace on time. Overtake there, Frequent fast touch on the breaks, No signals, No driving below 20. Third gear - slowest, Swerving - switching of lanes, Traffic signs, nah don't matter.

Oh yea. But sometimes, though you had it in you (strength/power/acceleration/speed)... You can't escape accidents.

Due to your sleepy head and "not yourself" state,

You might end up hitting the breaks too late. And bump a white painted but rusty cab. Good thing, if the driver decides to run away.

So. Better have stayed and imprisoned yourself at home than engage in such stupid situations. Right? Dadadada.

Today wasn't a good day.

How about tomorrow?

:(

2007-07-23T02:10:00.000-07:00

Haaay. Pagod na pagod na ko. Tired of all these repetitions. Paulit ulit, nakakahilo na. Parang nakasakay sa elesing walang preno. Di mo alam kung kelan hihinto. Wala ba talagang stop light na pwedeng lumitaw? Isang kulay pula lang na ilaw, siguro naman titigil na to. Di ba. Mag-iisang taon nang ikot lang ng ikot e. Tama na.

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Trapped in the same situation?

2007-07-22T03:07:00.000-07:00

"Boo to the days I do repetitive things.

Hell goodbye to the words I always utter.

Suck the face of this life with so much drama."

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Ohh saying these phrases is like setting the borders, ending the game, and having a tight stomach.

But all you can do is say them, without much regard of how you really feel at the moment.

And at the end of the day, you'll just say: "hey i fixed myself already, i'm fixed, i can't be destroyed that easy anymore. I am same as a machine which has had stability, clean program with an upright direction. I'm stronger than ever. And those things I said will be kept, will keep me alive."

Oh sigh. Are you sure?

Hard to push yourself to be tired of something. You can't possibly turn yourself instantly to an idea of "hey, I'm tired of this. And I'm quitting." Bec this is not a platoon, a course, an organization, a job that you can easily get rid of.. This is "life." You may say it's over.....

No, life won't quit you even if you already did.

Bear with it.

Gone, Here.

2007-07-16T04:07:00.000-07:00

Gone, Here. Here, Gone.

You're here tonight, sharing my comfy blanket.

We cuddle, we hug, we laugh, we tell stories.

We look at the stars, look at the buildings, take some pics,

Just because we're not yet sleepy..

Soon enough, your eyes struggle, closing

You fell asleep, and hey we are at the rooftop.

Next morning, ooh you're gone.

A bird might have stolen you when I fell asleep.

And now I'm alone again,

The cold wind touching my blank face.

The rusty rooftop frictioning with my bare feet.

Without much control of the situation,

Yea. I tripped.

After the sudden fall,

I then realize,

You were never beside me.

It was all just a dream.

A dream that is too good to be happening.

All given realities.

2007-07-05T03:11:00.000-07:00

Blah blah.

I feel like exploding any minute now.

Comfort zone: Starbucks with Poleco readings. Hello tien.

Ooooh damnness, where did my luck fly? Come back.

Bad vibes, wrong timing, idle position, messed up works, day dreaming face, scrambled self. Thats what completely describe me right now.

Ohooo. take me to an empire where pain and heartaches are minutely absent.

Coz you know, hell's drowning me to deathness.

Darkness pulling me under...... Who can save me?

---------Sabay sabay pa. Yes, can I breathe guys?

Six o'clock in the Morning.

2007-07-01T02:32:00.000-07:00

When your alarm clock bugs you off at its loudest, do you see it as a call to celebrate?

Oftentimes, you may not want to hit your bed early and prefer to spend the night staring on those yellow, blue, orange playful lights of the streets.... Or look up, admire the bright stars of the dark sky. But swiftly stop and think of "what you'll do when this majestic view vanishes tomorrow morning."

You assure yourself that this night would be the best night of your life because of fear. Fear of getting up the next day, not knowing how to face it.

The sunrise upsets you not because it is ugly. Yes, it's not. Maybe, you just don't consider the thought of waking up with no food, no water, no car keys, no pair of socks. Shallow sentiments?

To be effective, maybe. Again maybe, opening your eyes will feed you the reality that you are alone. Nothing and no one can fill your empty hand.

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You have everything tonight, how about tomorrow? Do you still have a tight grip on them?

Scary the feeling of not being able to fight for "what completes your face - a smile" "what excites you to wake up early" "who tickles your feet to get you ready" "who offers a cup of Starbucks to get you going" "who asks how was your sleep and greets you, good morning!"

Things and persons (what/who used to be's) that might be gone the next day. -- What scares you in welcoming the sunrise which will signal another day of being back to lonesomeness.

Back to normal. The magic ends tonight.

Are you sleepy yet?

Great Froilan, Dedicated to Someone na!!!

2007-05-11T00:45:00.000-07:00

Because of being near you, Gosh man, WORSE effing moment.....................................

Habagat F.F.

Fucking Face.

Find your way out
Leave the bench
Cross the line
Don't ever look back

Because your gigolo attitude makes my awesome day suck to its limits..

Hate the blink of your monstrous green eyes
Signaling the delay of any motion around me

Hey. Do you own a mask?
Have it cover your boring lips
Because Man, it stinks. Right right?
Hm.

Every part of you combined altogether will lead me to head aches, lonely nights, dragging episodes, trying-hard seriousdashemo moments, and over dozed sleeping pills.

The whole package of 'your highness'??-- Nah, your face alone has caused me indisputable disasters and one biiiiiiig painful downfall. BETTER YET, A HABAGAT.

Brrrrrrr. Word of Advice-- Take off, bring your face. Bring every panget AND WINDY part of you.

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Hahahaha. Galit lang a. -OO GALIT TALAGA.
Not "stoning" anyone. -STONING NOW.

Grabe, You are so way GAY. And pwedeng itago mo na lang ang toy cars mo! Leche e.

You suck completely!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BOO.

FOR IMC Pip -- BERNADETS SONGCO!!!

2007-04-20T07:45:00.000-07:00

I-sasang tabi ang mushyhan sa pagkakataong ito.
Kakalimutan ang bugso ng malalambing na salita.
Para kasing kay lungkot ng mga pinasak na entri e.

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Anyway, this is written and published for my dear hell-a povedan --- Bernadets Songco.

You asked me to update. Hmmm, this entry will test your proficiency (Guess what?) in Filipinoooo Lang.

Here.

Translate:

1 Ubod ng saya ang maging balingkinitan at metikulosang Presidente ng grupong tatak sa binhi ng mga nagpupunyagi.

2 Ang bolang asul ay tumalbog patungo sa himpapawid at di na matanto kung salat sa hangin o balot na balot na sa polusyon.

3 Literatura ng Aleman ang nais gugulan ng matinding pag-aaral ni Pepe upang siya'y maging isang ganap na mananayaw sa piging na mangyayari bukas ng gabi.

4 Can you give me a pair of sneakers or a shot of El Hhhhombre?

5 Work the hair.

6 Our president is currently in with Bush and works hand in hand with the Congress to obliterate terrorism, abuses and corruption.

There you go-go. No coaching please. Hahaha.
Halatang bored lang a. rrrr.

Hoping for a response Dear PoPoPoveydan, =p

Summer Reject!

2007-04-12T09:06:00.000-07:00

First entry that I will really make some nonsense kwento.

Hm.
Enlistment is still ongoing, yet we (mgt peeps) are left unanswered whether or not we can enroll CAS. Brrr.

If ever they don't allow us. Nakoooo. I'm going to set fire the University!!!

Summer sucks na tuloooooooy.

The sched is manipulating the overstated sincerity of my Summer breeze. - hahaha for Han.

And I am not happy with it. Not. Not. Not.
=p

EYES OF A CHILD CAN TELL

2007-03-26T09:44:00.000-07:00

A thousand words do not completely speak TRUTHFULLY.

A single action may.

Actions do not always provide assurance.

A word can.

It is better to not have spoken at all than jumble words to form a sweet statement full of lies,

bragging about the things you can give, you can do.

Either way, execution of pictured targets does not guarantee safety from lies,

It may be just an "acting."

Easy said. Easy done? Easy done. Easy said?

Deceitful MOTIVE. Whether of words, or actions, makes everything else thorny.

Phew.

Words trigger - brainwashing

AND

Actions formulate - hopes.

Words. Actions.

Only the eyes of a child can speak of the truth.

Only the body of a child can act honestly.

Pure Minds. Pure Hearts.

Point here

2007-03-23T10:40:00.000-07:00

Downloading.......................

All night I've been downloading.

Easy access of any genre I like
One click, lists and lists of songs appear.

But but. It's not that simple.
Every song I pick to download takes an hour to be completed.

After every completion of a song, I play the "recently added" cuts over and over.

Here guys. Patience can lead you to the mystic road of musiic.

Wonderful ideas, lyrics, titles, lines, chorus, chords, remix. - these are apt to be heard by every working soul, provided he or she wants it too.

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It's due to say that "anything" precious is worth waiting for.
It's not the "waiting" that matters,

it is the infinite "playing" of the melody...

You see, we often measure the time we think is wasted because of waiting in line.

And we ignore the fact that we're there waiting for a reason.
The reason that makes the "waiting" worthwhile.

Hours. minutes. months. years. --Doesn't matter. As long as we hold on to the "reason."
And make sure this "reason" won't slither.

Because if it does; alas, waiting is apparently of no use.

Do me a favor

2007-03-17T05:03:00.000-07:00

Make me happy.

Be interestingly witty.

Just avoid putting your eyes on me

Because I might be under your spell for the rest of the day

Long enough to remember that you are the impossible.

A run I'll never forget

2007-03-12T09:05:00.001-07:00

Last Friday, we(the team) were able to passs our Video in PhilHis within the period. 15 mins before the bell rings, wuhooo, we made it. Last group to air one of "Acad-related topics." Ours is about the workload=Why do we have 27units as a reg load?* It's dubbed as

THE FORSAKEN TRUTHOLOGY

Funny bec we didn't predicted the group will cram sooo badly. Last week pa, shootings were ongoing. Runnings were smooth. But suddenly, Sir Joachim thought of revising the storyline, changing the whole captured dets.

In short, start from scratch.

Tues night (Mar6 'to) was the heartbreaker e. And Mar9 was the passing. Hmm but because of great teamwork, superb ideas and dedication of every single head. Ahah one night and were out to make another masterpiece.

Wed-whole day and Thurs-patakastakas sa classes...were the only "shooting" days.

Tiring, yes. Jed knows how tiring talaga. Everyone was dead beat, doing the 10-minute vid.

I wouldn't make kwento about the story, but guys.

The vid would have been soo kulang if this is not kasali----Teaserrrr.

Sioms' still in good shape saying: "Huy huy huy, HOle, HOle, Misyun 'to, Misyun 'to, Gisheng!!"

BWAhah. Love the Giant!

THE VID WON'T TURN OUT THAT FANTASTIC W/O THE HELP OF:

Two manongs giving diploma and slapping us

Manong fixing the flags of Equatorials

One Mekaniko who climbed going to the Girl's CR

Two guards asking pa: Ok lang ba kayo jan? Tumabi kayo ha! Baka the door will tilapon

Maintenance peeps: Bukas na kayo uuwi demonic tawa*

Profs who just passed by, -Konting pagiging usisera naman no! We were locked can't you effing see? Maka ihi lang talaga o! hehe

Nurse sa Clinic: making silip while shooting

By stander na likes to be seen in the vid. -you're there na ok?

Guard 1 Stella- Wala e, sooo galing to fight us, got a bruise pa e. Ok na ba un? Siopao bruise sa arms e!!

Guard 2 MPC- Ayon, i think i like you, with the dialogue, taboy, --Baka masagasaan kayo

Guard 3 ALB- Eto matindi, soo sir, you're from the states? Herherr

Lorenze- burning and Acer computer

UAPPY - for letting himself to be beaten

Dr. Dumol - for the "Why not" answer

Apple MAC Comp - songs especially 'Whats my mother fucking name?'

Sioms Lim - Alam niyo na, the giant.

And of course.....

The Team!!! + JedGurey! +Sir Joachim

Til our next production guuuuys.

Cant wait for hannah to be the star e. Turner amp! :) ***Akoooooooo siiiiiiiiii Induuuy Piniduh. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo -Potang mushy pa a!

Nah, seriously, had a fabuloulitic time, working with all the hardworking students of the school who makes them "be masters of one, and/or robots who could destrooooy the world."

Group huuuuuuuuuug going to our "FORSAKEN TRUTHOLOGY" vid..!

Cheers!!!!!!!!

You need not be scared

2007-03-04T06:07:00.000-08:00

I woke up this morning, hearing your voice. Even though I'm in my unconscious mind that moment, the ring coming from my phone suddenly put a smile on my face. We talked, and we were just fine. After a couple of hours, you texted some news. The news turned out to be a very bad one. One that could make anyone experience the haste of paranoia. Yes, paranoia knocked me out. Not that I've gone suspicious but only or very shocked. Reading the text, I hoped I'm just having another nightmare. And later on, someone will slap my face or pinch my cheeks. But no, no one's there. I'm awake. And I need not have to consider this as a prank.

Ooh shiiit. Ooh shiiit.
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Break a news when you feel like it. Crack a joke when everybody seems very stressed. Do a lot of convincing to trick people. Live life to its fullest. You would not know when a calamity will strike your neighborhood. Do what you have to do. Maybe it's time to lessen the "what if's attacks" or the "regrets carved in stones"

Because nothing is permanent. Nothing is yours. Nothing in this world will matter,

Only you'll know "what it could have been" if you tried.

*You have a choice.

I have mine also, and I won't blew it.

Dedicated to our PHILHIS video!!

2007-03-03T05:54:00.000-08:00

As my friends in Uap know, we all are in deep confusion on what course to choose. A year and a half and we're off to the graduate school!

GRADUATE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nice nice. Good work guys. Malutong na Good bye to Liberal Arts!! Yez yez. We did it!!

Soooo.. These are my top three courses:

1. Management
2. Integrated Marketing and Communication
3. Political Economy

Any words of wisdom? The hell why did I choose these three? I don't know either.

I will let the manibela handle the 'picking' and be a dried potato.

MARCH 9!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE JUDGMENT DAAAAAY.

GAMESET

2007-03-01T04:02:00.000-08:00

The magic of games.

Tonight as I drive around the streets of Manila,
I can't help but wonder how life can be soooo cruel.

When I was a kid, games were always energy boosters,

But this time, playing can be painstaking
Especially when the game becomes unfamiliar.

The game a child used to love
suddenly changes its identity.

LOST. VERY.

Can just somebody hand me the goldenbook where all the rules of this effing game are written?

Tera, let's play play guys!

Certainties and Qualms

2007-02-25T04:10:00.000-08:00

I can't smile without you,
I can't smile without you,
Oh i can't laugh.
and I can't sing,
I'm finding it hard to do anything...

~Are people seerious when they hum, sing or say these things?
Can't a person live without the other?

Hmmmm. Very gasgas na this thinking right?

Most of the peeps say: "Gosh lover, I can't imagine life without you." "I'm lost without you." "You complete me darling." "You are the center of my universe." "I don't know what I would do if you're not around." "It's better to die than live not having you at all." "You and me are unbreakable." "My world evolves around you." "Your absence eradicates joy in this world." "I'm halfempty if we're not together."

~~Oh diba, gasgas shiiiiit. These bolas 90% remain as bolas. None or few lang are said coming from the heart.

So if you're that dumby dumb, gullibly gullible,,
YOU'LL BE DECEIVED.
YOU'LL BELIEVE HE OR SHE WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU.

So just an advice for those who are deeply crazy inlove,

Be sure of something. Uncover the sincerity of your partner by staying closely, feeling their heart throbbing,
as he or she says ``you are my sunshine after the rain``

The only banat na heavy!! Wuhooo.

HAHAHAHA. Mushyness kills! Looks don't!

WORN OUT

2007-02-23T04:40:00.000-08:00

Empty mind.

I haven't updated this site since (?).

Oh. yes. Lay low.

But it does not mean nothing big happened on those dead sleeping weeks.

Not sure though what to answer if asked: How are you?

Am I just hiding the teary joy? Covering up the bizarre mood? Or my heart's wandering elsewhere?

"Following the confusing roll of the ball" has been my dictum.

If I am not in favor of something,
I just let it go. Keep every heartache to myself.

Why?

Well. I do this thinking that "Ok lang yun, ganun naman talaga the flow of life e." ~Are you seer?
or

"Siguro naman the jaded-feeling will die away sooner or later." ~Will it?

Oh........ Ooooh la la.

Such a relief

2007-01-04T06:14:00.000-08:00

I am very happy today. You just don't know how much you've made me haaaaappy. Hahaha.

Thank you thank you thank you. You've managed to neutralize my emotions e. Hayop galing!

Nonsense talk

2006-12-24T12:31:00.000-08:00

Just.... Thinking aloud.

How do you cure a heart broken by someone?
After so many years, there comes a point wherein everything you have, everything that makes you happy disappear. That instant.
You find yourself alone.
No one's there to listen.
No one hears your pain.
All that is there is you, your broken heart and yourself.

Then you end up examining the things which made it end this way.
Bitterness covers your soul. Hatred. Loneliness. Idleness. State of Nothingness.

How can you ever survive this state of shitness?

How?

Everytime you try to redirect your attention, it just hits you over and over again. "Shit wala na."

Choices are to either= be with the person in charge of your broken heart
or
be screwed, trying to forget that person.

All you need is an answer now. An answer that would help you get over the effing situaation.

Psychological breakthrough lang. Right?

A DAY OF BLISS

2006-12-22T04:22:00.000-08:00

Yesterday we went to tagaytay for a wildlife experience. I, Jed, Em, Lorenze, and (Em's family: Ate Gelly, Sam kulit, Gabby girl and the companies) hahaha. Two cars having their way to the steepy road of Tagaytay Island. Jed drove us there using my wkt542 and Ate Angel followed. HAHAHA. Such a romantic event for Em and Jed. Such a free event for me and Lorenze. All expenses paid by Bautista family e. Nice right? A step of being pabigat and bulakaw.

Meeting place and time: Parcroyale 12pm.

Hahaha funny because we arrived (I+Lorenze) there at 100pm. And my Jeddy Boy was there na at 10am! Grabe right? Isn't he too excited to see Em Bautista of his life?? Gosh. And here is the main thing~ he stayed at Ministop (nr. Parcroyale) lang the whole time he's waiting for us. So what's that JED? Why can't you go up and have your intimate moment with the ONE? haha. Torpe striking again!

Finally, when we reached the place. Jed had the driver's seat while I took the pazenger's seat. Yeeah! Time to rest and sleeeeeep zzzzz. Em went with us sitted next to Lorenze. There we go. Having our way to the steepy Tagaytay.......

I thought in 45mins, we'll be there na e. BUT no no no. The supposed to be 45-minute ride became 2 hoursssss. Why? Why? Because of Jeddy the Hero. He was trying to save time and make the trip shorter. We did not passed by Sta Rosa. Instead we had to deal with bumping trucks and waving BIG JOE just to reach Tagaytay. Wow e.

Driving driving. Kulitan. And at long last........................

Tagaytay here we come.

The group was starving really. so we spotted Dencio's and had our supposed to be "lunch date."
The food was sarap and they all enjoyed but me. :( Ask why. Because of Sam Bautista. HAAAY. If you're listening dear POVEDAN, I am hurt. I am never FRRRRRREEAKY, WEIRD AND CRRRRAZY. Never in my life have I encountered this. I was hurt guys. Really hurt. The group knows why.

Back to you, after the meal, we went toooo guess what-?

THE ZOO! THE HOORRIFYING EXPERIENCE.

At 6pm, we were there. Had to pay the entrance fees pa. But before that, there were kids and adults that were eager to talk to us. They were selling something which was very expensive. They kept on saying: "mam eto na lang ho tulong niyo kasi kami na magbabantay ng KUTSI niyo." "Ikot po kasi kami dito kung sino magbabantay." "Sigi na ho boss. PangChristmas lang ho." I was petrified. Really. We did not mind them though. Bec we were excited to seeee the gigantic world of Animals that time.

Soooo. Ate Angel was generous to libre everyone for entrance. 99bucks. EXPENSIVE. And we were 8!!!!! 99x8=792!!! Woah. Thanks dear kaibigan hehehehe. So there. We entered the main building, paid and got started. The place was creeping me out. It was dark. No light. No manongs to talk to. No towels for sweat. Phew.... As we go on, there were creatures that were scaryyy. Apes, UST tiger, Bear, Snakes, Sheep, Goat, Peacock, Baby Croc, and diff kinds of fiiiiiish. We just walked and walked. Rounds through the whole area. When suddenly, we found the "STAIRS of the DARKNESS." Everyone was matapang even Sam. We made our way there. Jed was the leading star. Lorenze was lambot. hahaha. And i followed Jed. And they followed. Checking the place out, Jed heard something. Roaring groaning and giggling sounds. That's how it sounded. He asked me if I heard it too. Shmpre due to my faulty ears, I gradually hear the sound. We were jumpy scared and started to shout. The rest of the group was clueless until they heard it.

Funny. Everyone was pushy. Was trying to get over with the other to reach the top. Em was trying to hold Sam back so that she will have the top spot. HAHAHA. Isn't it Ates should take care of the little ones? Harhar. THEY WERE ALL AFRAID BUT ME. I was screaming: "HOY mga duwag!" "Ano ba yaaaan, para ungol lang naduwag na" hahaha. I was the only ONE who had the courage. who made them feel na "that's ok, relax na kayo." who was veerrry brave. BRAVERY is the key to a SUCCESSFUL trip. hahahahahaha..... Peace friends!!!!

After a while, we cooled down. And checked out the fishy world. Sooo nice. We loved it.

You thought done na kami with the horror attack? No NOTYET. Jed and Lorenze still dared to have another shot with the stairs of darkness.

Mehn. They were helly monsters a! Toss Coin was our only chance to resist the challenge. BUT unfortunately, the guys won!!! Head over tails because of the kadayaan of Jeddy BOY!

Going down, we barely see anything. Darkness unfolds.................................

AT LAST, the Pa-brave BOYS went scared also. Soo the ending of this story was...

having to expect for something real but found nothing~ZERO.

We just scared ourselves to DEATH and had a good laugh!!!

LOVEYOU GUYS!!!! Nice Ultimate Bonding Experience! MMMMWA! herrherr.

Inspiring Thoughts herrherr.

2006-12-18T10:07:00.000-08:00

Christmas break again. Christmas. Gifts. Simbang gabis. Aguinaldos. Parties. Lights. Carols. Red and Green. Money. Shopping. Gift wrappers. Toys. Greetings. Texts. Busy roads. Tips. Envelopes. Coins. Candies. Crunchy 20 pesos. Wishes. Santa. Pictures. Out of towns. Mano po lolo. Mano po tito. Songs. Kris Kringle. Mommy and Baby. Noche Buena. Diatabs. Nice Dress. Polo shirts. Formal attires. Fine dinner. Snow. White Christmas. Long distance calls. New phone. To do lists. To buy lists. Puto bumbong. Bibingka. BBQ. Lechon. Exchange gifts. Exchange food. Sweet thoughtful Cards. Ribbons. Scissors. Tape. Give aways. Drinking sessions. Pulutan. Yozi break. Starbucks Planner. Beach. Bikinis. Metro Manila Film Fest. Night Life.

There are numerous things we can think of when Christmas season is fast approaching.

Fun. Cheers. Togetherness. Love. Give. Take.

Don't we enjoy Christmas without these things? Think.
Many families spend their Christmas with nothing in their pockets. Nothing to give. Nothing to eat. Nothing to wear. But certainly, they find their way to enjoy this special occasion.
Just by being with the ones we love, more than enough right?

So this Christmas, try not to lugmok yourself with these "used to do" lists. Try to OPEN your HEART. Examine the real meaning of CHRISTMAS. And spend time with the real celebrant of this event. Who? WHO? Christ.

Not because our country is in deep shit of Arroyo, we can no longer enjoy Christmas.
I never want to hear anyone saying: "Nako Christmas ba? I can't feel it e. Parang di nagsasaya mga tao e" "Arroyo, potek ikaw lang masaya ngayong Pasko."

Instead, be thankful. Start reliving the TRUE meaning of Christmas.

LOVE, GIVE, PRAY, THANK, SURRENDER.

Well actually guys. I'm one of those nonbelievers of Christmas. But now. :)

Never Ending Cycle?

2006-12-05T08:11:00.000-08:00

Never ending cycle. Why. Why? Hm everytime I no longer want something, I let it go... And move to the next "best" thing. It has always been like that. It's sarap e. Super CAREFREE.

That's how it goes for me... And at this moment I'm thinking if I will let go of this something which has captivated my heart for quite two years now. Or stick with all the damnness, lokohans and hopes Hm.. Mind vs heart situation. Laboed.

Universitas et Pacificarum (spelled it right?)... A very lovely, serene, foresty, not to mention, tiny- place.

Unibersidad de Santo Tomasino (pauso)... A big, way big, big, fantastic arena to be.

So there. Processing~ Should I let go of the present to be with my original love? Or Hold on to it and still aspire for an escape from its cruelty. My DREAM or My Present.

It's hard you know.

Present and Future

Who's going to win my pa-hard to get heart?

Left confused.

Err.

2006-12-01T05:52:00.000-08:00

A very lazy friday. Err. And I can't figure out how to deal with you ok. Ideas are pouring out my head but dahhmn, how can i wrap it up if I can't handle the wholly process? harhar. Anyone help me please... Hahaha laboed by you!

An instant fade away.......

2006-11-25T10:19:00.000-08:00

Having a blog is so not me. Thanks to my ever loving companion-froilan who gave me the light to pursue the calling... Getting my head started.. Intellectual Vibes come get me!

2006-11-25T10:12:00.000-08:00

HANAH ANG PANGIT MO