Just.... Thinking aloud.
How do you cure a heart broken by someone?
After so many years, there comes a point wherein everything you have, everything that makes you happy disappear. That instant.
You find yourself alone.
No one's there to listen.
No one hears your pain.
All that is there is you, your broken heart and yourself.
Then you end up examining the things which made it end this way.
Bitterness covers your soul. Hatred. Loneliness. Idleness. State of Nothingness.
How can you ever survive this state of shitness?
How?
Everytime you try to redirect your attention, it just hits you over and over again. "Shit wala na."
Choices are to either= be with the person in charge of your broken heart
or
be screwed, trying to forget that person.
All you need is an answer now. An answer that would help you get over the effing situaation.
Psychological breakthrough lang. Right?
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Friday, December 22, 2006
A DAY OF BLISS
Yesterday we went to tagaytay for a wildlife experience. I, Jed, Em, Lorenze, and (Em's family: Ate Gelly, Sam kulit, Gabby girl and the companies) hahaha. Two cars having their way to the steepy road of Tagaytay Island. Jed drove us there using my wkt542 and Ate Angel followed. HAHAHA. Such a romantic event for Em and Jed. Such a free event for me and Lorenze. All expenses paid by Bautista family e. Nice right? A step of being pabigat and bulakaw.
Meeting place and time: Parcroyale 12pm.
Hahaha funny because we arrived (I+Lorenze) there at 100pm. And my Jeddy Boy was there na at 10am! Grabe right? Isn't he too excited to see Em Bautista of his life?? Gosh. And here is the main thing~ he stayed at Ministop (nr. Parcroyale) lang the whole time he's waiting for us. So what's that JED? Why can't you go up and have your intimate moment with the ONE? haha. Torpe striking again!
Finally, when we reached the place. Jed had the driver's seat while I took the pazenger's seat. Yeeah! Time to rest and sleeeeeep zzzzz. Em went with us sitted next to Lorenze. There we go. Having our way to the steepy Tagaytay.......
I thought in 45mins, we'll be there na e. BUT no no no. The supposed to be 45-minute ride became 2 hoursssss. Why? Why? Because of Jeddy the Hero. He was trying to save time and make the trip shorter. We did not passed by Sta Rosa. Instead we had to deal with bumping trucks and waving BIG JOE just to reach Tagaytay. Wow e.
Driving driving. Kulitan. And at long last........................
Tagaytay here we come.
The group was starving really. so we spotted Dencio's and had our supposed to be "lunch date."
The food was sarap and they all enjoyed but me. :( Ask why. Because of Sam Bautista. HAAAY. If you're listening dear POVEDAN, I am hurt. I am never FRRRRRREEAKY, WEIRD AND CRRRRAZY. Never in my life have I encountered this. I was hurt guys. Really hurt. The group knows why.
Back to you, after the meal, we went toooo guess what-?
THE ZOO! THE HOORRIFYING EXPERIENCE.
At 6pm, we were there. Had to pay the entrance fees pa. But before that, there were kids and adults that were eager to talk to us. They were selling something which was very expensive. They kept on saying: "mam eto na lang ho tulong niyo kasi kami na magbabantay ng KUTSI niyo." "Ikot po kasi kami dito kung sino magbabantay." "Sigi na ho boss. PangChristmas lang ho." I was petrified. Really. We did not mind them though. Bec we were excited to seeee the gigantic world of Animals that time.
Soooo. Ate Angel was generous to libre everyone for entrance. 99bucks. EXPENSIVE. And we were 8!!!!! 99x8=792!!! Woah. Thanks dear kaibigan hehehehe. So there. We entered the main building, paid and got started. The place was creeping me out. It was dark. No light. No manongs to talk to. No towels for sweat. Phew.... As we go on, there were creatures that were scaryyy. Apes, UST tiger, Bear, Snakes, Sheep, Goat, Peacock, Baby Croc, and diff kinds of fiiiiiish. We just walked and walked. Rounds through the whole area. When suddenly, we found the "STAIRS of the DARKNESS." Everyone was matapang even Sam. We made our way there. Jed was the leading star. Lorenze was lambot. hahaha. And i followed Jed. And they followed. Checking the place out, Jed heard something. Roaring groaning and giggling sounds. That's how it sounded. He asked me if I heard it too. Shmpre due to my faulty ears, I gradually hear the sound. We were jumpy scared and started to shout. The rest of the group was clueless until they heard it.
Funny. Everyone was pushy. Was trying to get over with the other to reach the top. Em was trying to hold Sam back so that she will have the top spot. HAHAHA. Isn't it Ates should take care of the little ones? Harhar. THEY WERE ALL AFRAID BUT ME. I was screaming: "HOY mga duwag!" "Ano ba yaaaan, para ungol lang naduwag na" hahaha. I was the only ONE who had the courage. who made them feel na "that's ok, relax na kayo." who was veerrry brave. BRAVERY is the key to a SUCCESSFUL trip. hahahahahaha..... Peace friends!!!!
After a while, we cooled down. And checked out the fishy world. Sooo nice. We loved it.
You thought done na kami with the horror attack? No NOTYET. Jed and Lorenze still dared to have another shot with the stairs of darkness.
Mehn. They were helly monsters a! Toss Coin was our only chance to resist the challenge. BUT unfortunately, the guys won!!! Head over tails because of the kadayaan of Jeddy BOY!
Going down, we barely see anything. Darkness unfolds.................................
AT LAST, the Pa-brave BOYS went scared also. Soo the ending of this story was...
having to expect for something real but found nothing~ZERO.
We just scared ourselves to DEATH and had a good laugh!!!
LOVEYOU GUYS!!!! Nice Ultimate Bonding Experience! MMMMWA! herrherr.
Meeting place and time: Parcroyale 12pm.
Hahaha funny because we arrived (I+Lorenze) there at 100pm. And my Jeddy Boy was there na at 10am! Grabe right? Isn't he too excited to see Em Bautista of his life?? Gosh. And here is the main thing~ he stayed at Ministop (nr. Parcroyale) lang the whole time he's waiting for us. So what's that JED? Why can't you go up and have your intimate moment with the ONE? haha. Torpe striking again!
Finally, when we reached the place. Jed had the driver's seat while I took the pazenger's seat. Yeeah! Time to rest and sleeeeeep zzzzz. Em went with us sitted next to Lorenze. There we go. Having our way to the steepy Tagaytay.......
I thought in 45mins, we'll be there na e. BUT no no no. The supposed to be 45-minute ride became 2 hoursssss. Why? Why? Because of Jeddy the Hero. He was trying to save time and make the trip shorter. We did not passed by Sta Rosa. Instead we had to deal with bumping trucks and waving BIG JOE just to reach Tagaytay. Wow e.
Driving driving. Kulitan. And at long last........................
Tagaytay here we come.
The group was starving really. so we spotted Dencio's and had our supposed to be "lunch date."
The food was sarap and they all enjoyed but me. :( Ask why. Because of Sam Bautista. HAAAY. If you're listening dear POVEDAN, I am hurt. I am never FRRRRRREEAKY, WEIRD AND CRRRRAZY. Never in my life have I encountered this. I was hurt guys. Really hurt. The group knows why.
Back to you, after the meal, we went toooo guess what-?
THE ZOO! THE HOORRIFYING EXPERIENCE.
At 6pm, we were there. Had to pay the entrance fees pa. But before that, there were kids and adults that were eager to talk to us. They were selling something which was very expensive. They kept on saying: "mam eto na lang ho tulong niyo kasi kami na magbabantay ng KUTSI niyo." "Ikot po kasi kami dito kung sino magbabantay." "Sigi na ho boss. PangChristmas lang ho." I was petrified. Really. We did not mind them though. Bec we were excited to seeee the gigantic world of Animals that time.
Soooo. Ate Angel was generous to libre everyone for entrance. 99bucks. EXPENSIVE. And we were 8!!!!! 99x8=792!!! Woah. Thanks dear kaibigan hehehehe. So there. We entered the main building, paid and got started. The place was creeping me out. It was dark. No light. No manongs to talk to. No towels for sweat. Phew.... As we go on, there were creatures that were scaryyy. Apes, UST tiger, Bear, Snakes, Sheep, Goat, Peacock, Baby Croc, and diff kinds of fiiiiiish. We just walked and walked. Rounds through the whole area. When suddenly, we found the "STAIRS of the DARKNESS." Everyone was matapang even Sam. We made our way there. Jed was the leading star. Lorenze was lambot. hahaha. And i followed Jed. And they followed. Checking the place out, Jed heard something. Roaring groaning and giggling sounds. That's how it sounded. He asked me if I heard it too. Shmpre due to my faulty ears, I gradually hear the sound. We were jumpy scared and started to shout. The rest of the group was clueless until they heard it.
Funny. Everyone was pushy. Was trying to get over with the other to reach the top. Em was trying to hold Sam back so that she will have the top spot. HAHAHA. Isn't it Ates should take care of the little ones? Harhar. THEY WERE ALL AFRAID BUT ME. I was screaming: "HOY mga duwag!" "Ano ba yaaaan, para ungol lang naduwag na" hahaha. I was the only ONE who had the courage. who made them feel na "that's ok, relax na kayo." who was veerrry brave. BRAVERY is the key to a SUCCESSFUL trip. hahahahahaha..... Peace friends!!!!
After a while, we cooled down. And checked out the fishy world. Sooo nice. We loved it.
You thought done na kami with the horror attack? No NOTYET. Jed and Lorenze still dared to have another shot with the stairs of darkness.
Mehn. They were helly monsters a! Toss Coin was our only chance to resist the challenge. BUT unfortunately, the guys won!!! Head over tails because of the kadayaan of Jeddy BOY!
Going down, we barely see anything. Darkness unfolds.................................
AT LAST, the Pa-brave BOYS went scared also. Soo the ending of this story was...
having to expect for something real but found nothing~ZERO.
We just scared ourselves to DEATH and had a good laugh!!!
LOVEYOU GUYS!!!! Nice Ultimate Bonding Experience! MMMMWA! herrherr.
Monday, December 18, 2006
Inspiring Thoughts herrherr.
Christmas break again. Christmas. Gifts. Simbang gabis. Aguinaldos. Parties. Lights. Carols. Red and Green. Money. Shopping. Gift wrappers. Toys. Greetings. Texts. Busy roads. Tips. Envelopes. Coins. Candies. Crunchy 20 pesos. Wishes. Santa. Pictures. Out of towns. Mano po lolo. Mano po tito. Songs. Kris Kringle. Mommy and Baby. Noche Buena. Diatabs. Nice Dress. Polo shirts. Formal attires. Fine dinner. Snow. White Christmas. Long distance calls. New phone. To do lists. To buy lists. Puto bumbong. Bibingka. BBQ. Lechon. Exchange gifts. Exchange food. Sweet thoughtful Cards. Ribbons. Scissors. Tape. Give aways. Drinking sessions. Pulutan. Yozi break. Starbucks Planner. Beach. Bikinis. Metro Manila Film Fest. Night Life.
There are numerous things we can think of when Christmas season is fast approaching.
Fun. Cheers. Togetherness. Love. Give. Take.
Don't we enjoy Christmas without these things? Think.
Many families spend their Christmas with nothing in their pockets. Nothing to give. Nothing to eat. Nothing to wear. But certainly, they find their way to enjoy this special occasion.
Just by being with the ones we love, more than enough right?
So this Christmas, try not to lugmok yourself with these "used to do" lists. Try to OPEN your HEART. Examine the real meaning of CHRISTMAS. And spend time with the real celebrant of this event. Who? WHO? Christ.
Not because our country is in deep shit of Arroyo, we can no longer enjoy Christmas.
I never want to hear anyone saying: "Nako Christmas ba? I can't feel it e. Parang di nagsasaya mga tao e" "Arroyo, potek ikaw lang masaya ngayong Pasko."
Instead, be thankful. Start reliving the TRUE meaning of Christmas.
LOVE, GIVE, PRAY, THANK, SURRENDER.
Well actually guys. I'm one of those nonbelievers of Christmas. But now. :)
There are numerous things we can think of when Christmas season is fast approaching.
Fun. Cheers. Togetherness. Love. Give. Take.
Don't we enjoy Christmas without these things? Think.
Many families spend their Christmas with nothing in their pockets. Nothing to give. Nothing to eat. Nothing to wear. But certainly, they find their way to enjoy this special occasion.
Just by being with the ones we love, more than enough right?
So this Christmas, try not to lugmok yourself with these "used to do" lists. Try to OPEN your HEART. Examine the real meaning of CHRISTMAS. And spend time with the real celebrant of this event. Who? WHO? Christ.
Not because our country is in deep shit of Arroyo, we can no longer enjoy Christmas.
I never want to hear anyone saying: "Nako Christmas ba? I can't feel it e. Parang di nagsasaya mga tao e" "Arroyo, potek ikaw lang masaya ngayong Pasko."
Instead, be thankful. Start reliving the TRUE meaning of Christmas.
LOVE, GIVE, PRAY, THANK, SURRENDER.
Well actually guys. I'm one of those nonbelievers of Christmas. But now. :)
Tuesday, December 5, 2006
Never Ending Cycle?
Never ending cycle. Why. Why? Hm everytime I no longer want something, I let it go... And move to the next "best" thing. It has always been like that. It's sarap e. Super CAREFREE.
That's how it goes for me... And at this moment I'm thinking if I will let go of this something which has captivated my heart for quite two years now. Or stick with all the damnness, lokohans and hopes Hm.. Mind vs heart situation. Laboed.
Universitas et Pacificarum (spelled it right?)... A very lovely, serene, foresty, not to mention, tiny- place.
Unibersidad de Santo Tomasino (pauso)... A big, way big, big, fantastic arena to be.
So there. Processing~ Should I let go of the present to be with my original love? Or Hold on to it and still aspire for an escape from its cruelty. My DREAM or My Present.
It's hard you know.
Present and Future
Who's going to win my pa-hard to get heart?
Left confused.
Friday, December 1, 2006
Err.
A very lazy friday. Err. And I can't figure out how to deal with you ok. Ideas are pouring out my head but dahhmn, how can i wrap it up if I can't handle the wholly process? harhar. Anyone help me please... Hahaha laboed by you!
Saturday, November 25, 2006
An instant fade away.......
Having a blog is so not me. Thanks to my ever loving companion-froilan who gave me the light to pursue the calling... Getting my head started.. Intellectual Vibes come get me!
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