One day Late. Yesterday's entry.

Don't hit the clingy road when you're half asleep.

Worse, don't DRIVE your dad's car if you can't rightfully handle the wheels.

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I woke up late, took a shower, wore my ironed clothes and put on my shabby shoes.

Dad was there greeting 'Goodmorning child' as I ran and got the keys on top of I-can't-remember where.

He just smiled, I did not. I was just again ranting because I did not wake up early.

Papers were killing me. Yes. YOU were torturing me that night.

And so I had to stay up late til my eyes weaken and start blurring out.

Hate hate hate it.

As expected, drivers perform the "too fast too furious style," not minding any pedestrian and PUJS if they need to reach a targetplace on time. Overtake there, Frequent fast touch on the breaks, No signals, No driving below 20. Third gear - slowest, Swerving - switching of lanes, Traffic signs, nah don't matter.

Oh yea. But sometimes, though you had it in you (strength/power/acceleration/speed)... You can't escape accidents.

Due to your sleepy head and "not yourself" state,

You might end up hitting the breaks too late. And bump a white painted but rusty cab. Good thing, if the driver decides to run away.

So. Better have stayed and imprisoned yourself at home than engage in such stupid situations. Right? Dadadada.

Today wasn't a good day.

How about tomorrow?

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Haaay. Pagod na pagod na ko. Tired of all these repetitions. Paulit ulit, nakakahilo na. Parang nakasakay sa elesing walang preno. Di mo alam kung kelan hihinto. Wala ba talagang stop light na pwedeng lumitaw? Isang kulay pula lang na ilaw, siguro naman titigil na to. Di ba. Mag-iisang taon nang ikot lang ng ikot e. Tama na.

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Trapped in the same situation?

"Boo to the days I do repetitive things.

Hell goodbye to the words I always utter.

Suck the face of this life with so much drama."

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Ohh saying these phrases is like setting the borders, ending the game, and having a tight stomach.

But all you can do is say them, without much regard of how you really feel at the moment.

And at the end of the day, you'll just say: "hey i fixed myself already, i'm fixed, i can't be destroyed that easy anymore. I am same as a machine which has had stability, clean program with an upright direction. I'm stronger than ever. And those things I said will be kept, will keep me alive."

Oh sigh. Are you sure?

Hard to push yourself to be tired of something. You can't possibly turn yourself instantly to an idea of "hey, I'm tired of this. And I'm quitting." Bec this is not a platoon, a course, an organization, a job that you can easily get rid of.. This is "life." You may say it's over.....

No, life won't quit you even if you already did.

Bear with it.

Gone, Here.

Gone, Here. Here, Gone.

You're here tonight, sharing my comfy blanket.

We cuddle, we hug, we laugh, we tell stories.

We look at the stars, look at the buildings, take some pics,

Just because we're not yet sleepy..

Soon enough, your eyes struggle, closing

You fell asleep, and hey we are at the rooftop.

Next morning, ooh you're gone.

A bird might have stolen you when I fell asleep.

And now I'm alone again,

The cold wind touching my blank face.

The rusty rooftop frictioning with my bare feet.

Without much control of the situation,

Yea. I tripped.

After the sudden fall,

I then realize,

You were never beside me.

It was all just a dream.

A dream that is too good to be happening.

All given realities.

Blah blah.

I feel like exploding any minute now.

Comfort zone: Starbucks with Poleco readings. Hello tien.

Ooooh damnness, where did my luck fly? Come back.

Bad vibes, wrong timing, idle position, messed up works, day dreaming face, scrambled self. Thats what completely describe me right now.

Ohooo. take me to an empire where pain and heartaches are minutely absent.

Coz you know, hell's drowning me to deathness.

Darkness pulling me under...... Who can save me?

---------Sabay sabay pa. Yes, can I breathe guys?

Six o'clock in the Morning.

When your alarm clock bugs you off at its loudest, do you see it as a call to celebrate?

Oftentimes, you may not want to hit your bed early and prefer to spend the night staring on those yellow, blue, orange playful lights of the streets.... Or look up, admire the bright stars of the dark sky. But swiftly stop and think of "what you'll do when this majestic view vanishes tomorrow morning."

You assure yourself that this night would be the best night of your life because of fear. Fear of getting up the next day, not knowing how to face it.

The sunrise upsets you not because it is ugly. Yes, it's not. Maybe, you just don't consider the thought of waking up with no food, no water, no car keys, no pair of socks. Shallow sentiments?

To be effective, maybe. Again maybe, opening your eyes will feed you the reality that you are alone. Nothing and no one can fill your empty hand.

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You have everything tonight, how about tomorrow? Do you still have a tight grip on them?

Scary the feeling of not being able to fight for "what completes your face - a smile" "what excites you to wake up early" "who tickles your feet to get you ready" "who offers a cup of Starbucks to get you going" "who asks how was your sleep and greets you, good morning!"

Things and persons (what/who used to be's) that might be gone the next day. -- What scares you in welcoming the sunrise which will signal another day of being back to lonesomeness.

Back to normal. The magic ends tonight.

Are you sleepy yet?