When your alarm clock bugs you off at its loudest, do you see it as a call to celebrate?
Oftentimes, you may not want to hit your bed early and prefer to spend the night staring on those yellow, blue, orange playful lights of the streets.... Or look up, admire the bright stars of the dark sky. But swiftly stop and think of "what you'll do when this majestic view vanishes tomorrow morning."
You assure yourself that this night would be the best night of your life because of fear. Fear of getting up the next day, not knowing how to face it.
The sunrise upsets you not because it is ugly. Yes, it's not. Maybe, you just don't consider the thought of waking up with no food, no water, no car keys, no pair of socks. Shallow sentiments?
To be effective, maybe. Again maybe, opening your eyes will feed you the reality that you are alone. Nothing and no one can fill your empty hand.
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You have everything tonight, how about tomorrow? Do you still have a tight grip on them?
Scary the feeling of not being able to fight for "what completes your face - a smile" "what excites you to wake up early" "who tickles your feet to get you ready" "who offers a cup of Starbucks to get you going" "who asks how was your sleep and greets you, good morning!"
Things and persons (what/who used to be's) that might be gone the next day. -- What scares you in welcoming the sunrise which will signal another day of being back to lonesomeness.
Back to normal. The magic ends tonight.
Are you sleepy yet?
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